What do I deserve?
The word deserve comes with so so many caveats and as I grow up (not older) I am learning a very important truth- I am deserving. I am deserving of love , deserving of happiness, deserving of joy and deserving of kindness- most of all from myself.
This year (I’m in birthday month) has taught me a lot. I am kind and I love and I give. But that does not mean that it, any of it will be reciprocated and that’s something it’s taken me time to understand. I always believed that if you cared with all your heart, the same care (maybe a lil less… but still sufficient) the person/s would care back. But that’s not the case. Unfortunately I can’t stop caring/ become selfish; but I have become a lil more cynical and more disappointed in people around.
So to combat that I have started being a bit kinder to myself. I am learning to indulge myself a bit more, care for me and though sometimes I feel guilty; I am working on staying present in the moment and being grateful. I don’t let myself down, so I’m feeling a lot less disappointed.
Sometimes it’s the lil voice in your head has to change… sometimes you need to teach it to be more positive and proud of you.
Remember cut yourself a break. On most days you are doing the best you can in the circumstances that you’re in. So be kind to yourself.
You deserve joy. So do I. And on injection day… I deserve flowers and a lil bit of pampering too! 🙂
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